“I want to talk to you. I want you to hear all about everything. I want to tell you that it’s been 164 days since we last talked and I want to hear you say that you know, that you’ve been counting, too. You’re the first person I feel like calling when something silly happens and the only person I know that would understand why I’m pushing myself to not talk to you. I could argue that you don’t know me anymore. But I know that you do, and that is why I still can’t talk to you.”—Why I Can’t Talk to the Person Who Knows Me Best (via jajareirei)
I hope it’s in your plans that you made the last day of 2011 the worst so far because you want me to appreciate the best you have for me in the year. I mean this is kind of cruel but everything happens for a reason and I want to let you know I’m super excited for you. 365 days of unexpected events I’m going to receive and create. I understand and realize I can’t relive any of them so my new years resolution is not to become skinny or save more money, it’s to love my life and live each day like I wont see tomorrow. I promise you and most importantly to myself I’ll start off this year right, so my goal for 2013 is just to continue what I started with you.
You don’t want me. &Thats not even the worst part. It’s that I want you. Still. Even though it’s been clear and laid out to me that your heart and mind is somewhere else and I no longer dwell in your thoughts and you no longer expect your phone to ring.
I’ve never sat behind the wheel of my car and just didn’t have a clue where I’d go. Until now. As much gas as I waste I really don’t think I’ll be getting any where. It’s not like you can get away from yourself any ways.
A long meaningful talk with my best friend. Cheese. Japanese lanterns hanging on my ceiling. For this fucking heater to work. My pimples to disappear. To have more time. Get paid for doing nothing. Eat right. Exercise. A better year than 2011. A free conscience. A better connection with God. To one day delete my Facebook. Move into a home. Something warm sounds good right now. The truth. Attention. Homewreckers to BREAK A BONE. Trade in all my gifts for money. Hawaii. Bubble wrap.